Learn How To Be A Real Pretender Part II

Comfort

Comfort 1

It took years before I discovered that I could do it … I
could change myself. I could tap into the power of
my brain to be what I wanted.

This is a gift from God.  We all have it. He has given
us something so magnificent that we are unaware of
its power.

Still, there is no such thing as free.

In order to reap the benefits from the power of the mind
I had to be willing to do the work.

This went beyond a challenge, more than a tug-o-war. It
was off the charts.

It started slowly. I would approach someone at work, make
a compliment about her hair or his shirt. It would take a week
before I could bring myself to say something again.

Forcing myself to join a group conversation nearly caused
a panic attack. Everyone was so engaged in talking they
didn’t notice that my hands were gripped so tightly my
knuckles were white.

The work was endless. Yet, I kept at it every chance I got.
Not always talking but joining.

Eventually, people came to know
me, called out to me.

I called back, waved, used their names.

Then it happened.

Comfort 2
One day the smell of pizza caused me to stop and
lean my head into the doorway of the lunchroom,
“Hey, got an extra slice for a starvin’ mate?”

Someone held up the box, while the group invited me to join
them. As I zipped across the room, the wall of fear crumbled
at my feet.

The feeling of comfort was real, there was no more need to pretend.

My work had taken four and one-half years.

May Your Glass Always Be Half Full

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About Maxi

Hi … I'm Maxi, a retiree with an addiction. I have quit: raising kids, cleaning house, cooking, doing laundry—there is no end the list—everything is done on "have to." The addiction? Writing to my last breath. blessings ~ maxi
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