Anyone Who Has Lost True Love Knows This

by maxi

“It’s been a year and you haven’t taken dad’s clothes out of the closet,” she slammed her mother.

Mother and daughter are toe to toe in her college room. When the argument ends, mom drives home and immediately empties her husband’s side of the closet.

It’s only a TV movie yet I’m practically out of my chair. “Don’t do it,” I yell, “you’re not ready. Your heart’s not in it.”

If you had a deep, abiding love with another person and lost them—your world falls apart. You don’t know how long this will last. That is up to your heart.

Friends and family say they know how you feel. They don’t, it’s your pain. They talk to you, give well-meaning advice. Their words are just a buzz inside your head. You’re in such a daze, nothing penetrates. You try to act natural, not let it show, go about your life as if all is okay. It’s anything but. Your pain dictates everything.

You know that:

•    Your heart keeps its own schedule
•    You will let it
•    It’s not up to others to decide
•    You hope today the pain will be less
•    You will let go when you’re ready
•    You may never put anything away
•    The clothes might stay in the closet
•    You may never be ready to let go
•    Your heart will decide

As I write, it has been 2yrs, 3mos, 3wks and 4 days since I lost my one true love. Nothing has changed since that moment. Maybe it never will…

My heart will let me know.

                   May Your Glass Always Be Half Full

About Maxi

Hi … I'm Maxi, a retiree with an addiction. I have quit: raising kids, cleaning house, cooking, doing laundry—there is no end the list—everything is done on "have to." The addiction? Writing to my last breath. blessings ~ maxi
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